Don't Worry About A Thing

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:6-7

I have never been too much of a worrier but I also don't think it is coincidence that I find myself singing Bob Marley and quoting Philippians 4:6-7 all the time.  Whenever I start to get anxious about a situation I just pray about it and find that peace that surpasses my understanding.  There have been several times in my life when I am worried about something or overwhelmed and God has showed me that peace. 

I have found myself worrying quite a bit lately and unable to find peace.  I have let people get in my head instead of God.  People that say I should be worried. People that judge me for not being worried.  People that are worried for me.  I have let them get to me.  I am done!  

Sure I have a lot to worry about.  Melody was born a month early.  I live in Cambodia where dirt and germs are everywhere.  I was sent home after 3 days in the hospital to take care of my baby that would probably still be in the hospital in America.  Melody is almost 4 weeks old and is still not gaining weight.  Strep throat is present at BYKOTA house.  I have to feed Melody breast milk and formula every two hours. I could keep going if I let myself!

With my lack of sleep it is very easy to find myself thinking about these things.  Thinking that I wish I was in America and that I could just lock Melody and I in a germ free room and never leave.  

Starting now though I choose, instead of worrying and "stewing" as my grandpa would say, to pray.  I choose to believe that "every little thing is gonna be alright."  God has everything under control.  There is nothing I can do to make Melody gain weight or to keep her from getting sick.  It is all in God's hands and I trust Him.  I trust that He will take care of my baby just like He takes care of everything else in the entire world.  My God, who created the world, who made me, who made Melody, who heals people every second, can take care of us.  All I have to do is trust him and let my request be made know to Him.

Please join me in praying for Melody.  As of right now she only weighs 4.8 pounds and hasn't gained any substantial weight since she was born.  Everything else is fine.  Her color is good, her muscle tone is good, she is more and more alert every day and she is eating better every day.  For some reason, though, she is just not gaining weight.  We go back to the doctor on Wednesday.  Please pray that she has gained weight by then.  Also, with the threat of strep throat going around, please pray for protection for my family.  Melody is too small to fight off sickness and with preschoolers in the house germs are just not easily contained. 

Thank you for your support and prayers for my family.  I can't tell you how much it means to us.

Babies and Traditions

In America we have several things that we do to get ready for a baby.  We have a baby shower (or two, or three), we decorate the baby room and gather tons and tons of supplies that we"need,"  we choose a name, we have a gender reveal party, and attend child birth and parenting classes.  During child birth we get to choose who we want in the room with us, what we want in the room with us (tv, music, candles), and we get to decide on just about everything from medication to birthing postition.  After birth we stay in the hospital a few days (depending on baby and mothers health) and have many visitors.  After we go home from the hospital, aside from a few more visitors and dinners made for us, we are on our own.  We enjoy our new addition and in a few days we are ready to step back into society (church, Wal-Mart, family events).

Being in a place of so many different cultures I have found that there are some very different and strange traditions that go with child birth around the world. Such as one friend that came to see us said that in China it is custom after child birth to drink a certain type of wine. I read another blog about different traditons, in one country new mothers are given a box of baby things and a matress in the bottom when they give birth, often times the baby sleeps in the box for the first few months.

Cambodia like everywhere else has it's own tradtions and beliefs.  One is that after birth they light a fire under the mother... I have yet to figure out why but I am very very glad I am not Cambodian!  Another I learned the day we got home from the hospital.  Since Melody was such a surprise to us I didn't have anything at the hospital except the date night clothes I had packed for our get away.  I wasn't sure what I had clean at home so I just asked Micah to grab me some gym shorts and a tank top.  Apparently that was not the right attire.  When we got home the lady across the street was very adament that I needed to have long sleeve and pants on.  The next day, our tuk tuk driver said the same thing and also added gloves, socks, and a fuzzy hat.  When I asked why, he said it was so I didn't get cold....  Um, hello!  It is 90 degrees!  I am hot!!!!  My doctor said that Khmer women wear winter clothes for several weeks after birth... crazy people. :P  A few days later I was at the store with my mom.  The clerk asked how old Melody was (10 days at the time).  She was so impressed that I was out and about.  She said that khmer women don't get out of bed for almost a month after birth.  Also, they are very scared of new babies.  She told us that she didn't hold her son much until he was about 3 months because she was afraid to drop him.  Also on this line we recently got a new baby at BYKOTA house.  The staff begged us to keep her at the Benz's house until she was 3 months because they were afraid of her.  When it comes to naming a baby it is Budhist culture that the parents take the baby to the local pagoda and a monk tells them what the baby should be named.

I am curious.  What are your baby traditions?  Does your family do something special when a baby comes?

Melody Roem Bergen is here!

Unless we are not facebook friends (in which case we should be)  you know by now that Melody Roem made her appearance on January 25th. She was a whole month early and really caught us by surprise!  Micah and I had gone out for a little get-away for my birthday.  We started the day (Friday) off with a trip to see Dr. Gloria so we could see the birthing room, go over how things would be done, and just have my weekly check up.  While we were there she said that Melody had dropped down and was in a really good position.  When she used the words "the baby is engaged," Micah about had a heart attack.  She then said that babies often are "engaged" 3-4 weeks before they are born.  Nothing to worry about, everything was fine, so from there we went baby shopping, and had a great day together before going to our hotel.  My lower back had been hurting all day but I didn't really think much about it.  I just figured it was normal pregnancy things.  Once we got to the hotel I really wasn't feeling too well but, once again, I thought it was normal pregnancy stuff.  So we lounged around, I had a bath (which are very few and far between here in this land of no bathtubs) and we ordered pizza to our room.  We were having a great time just being lazy and not worrying about where we needed to be or what we needed to be doing. 

Our pleasant little get-away took a crazy turn though, at about 12:30 that evening.  I woke up to what felt like a huge kick and then my water broke!  At first I wasn't sure what was happening but then I was sure when the first contraction came.  I woke Micah up and told him to call Dr. Gloria.  She told him to time the contractions and call back in an hour.  Little did she know that my contractions were already about a minute apart.  Thirty minutes later I told him that I couldn't wait an hour unless he wanted to deliver this baby right there in the bathroom.  So he called back and we went on our way.  Melody was born at 2:30, less than an hour after we got to the hospital!  She was 5lbs 4 oz and 19in long!  

God's hand was at work in all of it.  I am very very thankful for such an uneventful birth.  On top of that, we already had babysitters for the night and the hotel was closer to the hospital than our house is.  Praise the Lord for His excellent, though unexpected, timing.

Melody was born healthy.  She breathed on her own and maintained her heat well.  The only problem was her blood sugar.  She had really low blood sugar (common in pre-term babies) and was really really sleepy.  This made it hard for us to feed her.  The nurses came in every hour and gave her dextrose to keep her hydrated and get her blood sugars up.  We also started trying to get her to breast feed... what a challenge!  Who knew it was going to be so hard!  

We went home from the clinic on Tuesday with instructions to give her 5mls of dextrose and to express milk to feed her with a syringe every hour with daily check ups at the clinic.  Then on Saturday she upped it to 10mls every hour.  Melody still hadn't really nursed but we kept trying.  She was getting more and more alert but every hour was getting very hard!  Finally on Sunday Melody started to nurse!  Not every time, but it was progress!  The next day she nursed 3 times!  Then yesterday (Tuesday) Melody was 10 days old and Dr. Gloria said we could start to reduce the dextrose... and cut back to every TWO hours!  Woohoo!  That was the best news I had heard yet!  Melody has nursed almost every time we have tried since then.  We still wrestle through it a little but she eventually gets it.  

Abby and Lily absolutely love her.  They are still not allowed to touch her since she is so little (plus they have runny noses right now) but they are constantly asking to see her.  I don't know how many times I have hear "Look!  She moved!"

Thank you for all your prayers for us during this time.  God has really blessed our family!  

Here is Dr. Gloria and Sokha, the midwife on duty when Melody was born.

Melody Roem Bergen 2 days old :)